i was in abit of a rush for the previous post so it came out like my plans for the month.haha.

Anyway, today as always on sat, i went for ssw practice. To me, this morning, i was feeling surpringly calm and somewhat happy.Even though ystd i was complaining of how tired i was from the band practice and hws.

Well, E gotten sick, and didnt tell me about it till i was 1/5 ways on the bus to s-cc.
This happens before so im not that nervous abt going there alone.

At the cc, i saw some new members and some old ones, whom i just met for the first time. Again i was on my own, the only saxophone.Again i was not panicking as hard as the last time and I felt contented with my playing, because i felt like myself when im playing the music...till it was getting colder and colder and my lip is starting to get tired.

I was left with 3 choices after the practice. 1. to go for a meeting(pb) 2. hang out with ssw members or 3. take bing and ing out for dinner and movie. I was confirmed that there WILL be a meeting at 8.30pm and i was off to my house.

Bing and ing did not tell and muji that we are going to eat out and it was too late by the time i reached home to tell her to stop cooking so i decided not to bring bing and ing out and i was sure that i will be on time for the meeting.

As so many time nowaday, i was the first to reach the meeting place. Bought a medium milo drink at mac. Patiently waiting for my friends to return my sms. And guess what? none of them are able to make it. and none bother to at least give me a warning that they might not be able to make it until it was too late.

I was mad.frustrated.disappointed. SO many things i have sacrificed to come to this meeting, and none came. Not a single word of apology.

i decided to take leave from the ssw practice till april and i was hoping maybe i want to hang out with them since im not going next wk. BUT noooooo, im being to serious, i thought about how this meeting could help to improve the pb and arent that VERY foolish of me.

i spent bus fairs that would still be in my wallet if i went with the cc ppl. My time would have been occupied, my body wouldnt be so tired from the 1hr15mins bus ride and another1.2 km walk from the bus stop to my house, carrying the alto sax.If ONLY i have stay put at s-cc.

ALL this for nothing.

p.s: I know it sounded dramatic but i would have never expect my trusted friends to do this to me.